Week 4: Losing my bearings

First, let me say a few words about the importance of maps in the back-country. A good map can mean the difference between a successful expedition and a tragic descent into delirium, discord and rampant cannibalism. Maps require a degree of protection; if placed within the wrong area of a hiker’s backpack, such as against the shoulder blades, the sweat and friction will steadily reduce the paper to shreds of pulp. Trust me on this one.

So when I pulled out my maps at the top of Signal Mountain and found myself holding a collection of damp, tattered fragments of paper, I should not have been surprised. I was six miles into an epic-length hike in an obscure corner of Rocky Mountain National Park, and it was not a convenient time to be lacking reliable maps or directions, considering how much off-trail bushwhacking I had ahead of me. The photocopied pages had been faint and blurry in the first place, thanks to malfunctions in the only Xerox machine I’d managed to locate the night before. And the abrasions didn’t make the contour lines any easier to read.

I flipped through comments in the summit register while my maps dried in the sunlight. In 2006, Tyler, in the company of a woman named Liz, wrote: “I asked her to marry me, but she said no! I hate you, Signal Mountain!” Poor Tyler.

After attempting to visually memorize the alpine topography before me, I descended into the forest and began to bushwhack across to Stormy Peaks. The region was an unruly thicket of fallen logs and branches strewn across steep, uneven ground. As I picked my way through the timber maze, I quickly grasped that no one had attempted to hike through here in quite a while. Several trunks of lodgepole pines simply crumbled into sawdust beneath my weight, and I’m not a heavy man.

It felt thrilling to walk through country that was so rarely visited by humankind… and slightly creepy as well. There is a shift in perception that affects visitors to the wilderness: the more isolated you are from humans and from human influences, the more aware you become of the consciousness of nature. In other words, the more alone you are, the more you realize you’re not alone. Creatures surround you, both seen and unseen. It’s not a welcoming sensation…. it’s more of an unsettling feeling of being observed by inhuman intelligences. If I lingered long enough, perhaps I could begin to feel accepted by the denizens of this woodland environment. But today, I was on the move.